My Birthday is Cominggg!

Hii! It's been a very longggg time. I just don't feel like writing anything for the past months. Maybe I just didn't have anything to write but suddenly I just want to write. I know I'm just too complicated.

By the way tomorrow is my birthday!! I am so excited. I should be right? But there's always something that keep bothering me every time my birthday comes.I know I'm not suppose to feel or think this way but I can't stop this kind of worry.

Well, you know when it's your birthday there's wishes, cards and presents that you'll expect from people that is close to you. So am I. I kind of not understand why it is a big deal but yeah sure it is a BIG deal. The thing is if I expect someone to remember my birthday and wish me (atleast) but they don't, the whole day will be sucks. I'll keep waiting all day for their wishes. And if they didn't, I would start to overthink.

This thing are the most annoying thing that always happen to my birthday. Perhaps everyone are facing the same thing too. I really need to learn 'How not to have high expectation' .

I think that's all for now. See ya *waving hands

Sorry?

When you texted me that night
I'm wondering if I should reply or ignore
Then I wonder if I should be friendly or hateful

When you told me that you're sorry
I can't stop thinking what are you sorry for
Is it for lying or for when I knew the truth?
Is it for shaking my heart or breaking it?
Is it for coming in my life or for leaving?
Is it for knowing a lot about me or for not staying?

Honestly
At that time when I face my heart break I hated you so much
But after time passes, I grew up
I had moved on
I neither hate you or like you
I barely have any lingering feelings towards you

You surely will never be anyone in my life anymore
Not even my friend
Now you're just
Someone I know from the past
Just a lot